about deermiracle
I was there.
I once sat in a hospital hallway, holding a diagnosis in my hands, my mind completely blank.
That night, I held my seven-year-old child until he fell asleep. Then I cried alone for a long time. I wasn’t afraid of the pain. I was afraid that he would lose his mother, that his childhood would become a dark hole he could never climb out of.
For days, I woke up in fear. At 3 a.m., I would type into the search bar: “How long do I have left?” Then I would just stare at the screen, motionless.
But I didn’t stay in that fear.
I started searching desperately—for information, asking doctors, researching hospitals, asking everyone I could. I needed to find the best hospital and have the right surgery in the shortest time possible. Because I knew I had no time to be afraid.
In the end, at one of China’s top hospitals, I went from diagnosis to surgery in 15 days. I went through active treatment, completing chemotherapy and radiation. And now, I have passed my five-year survival mark.
I am not a doctor. I cannot give you any medical diagnosis or treatment advice.
But I have walked that road. I know where the light is. I know what it feels like to cry alone in the middle of the night. I also know how hard it is to crawl out of that abyss.
If you are there right now—if you are scared, lost, and don’t know where to turn—
I want you to know: I have walked that road. It has an exit.
If you’d like, I will walk a part of it with you.
关于 Deermiracle
我曾在那里。
我曾坐在医院的走廊里，手里攥着诊断书，脑子里一片空白。
那天晚上，我抱着七岁的孩子，等他睡着之后，一个人哭了很久。我不是怕痛，我是怕他从此失去妈妈，怕他的人生会有一个黑洞般的童年。
那段时间，我每天都在恐惧里醒来。半夜三点，我会在搜索栏里打下：“我还能活多久？”然后看着屏幕，一动不动。
但我没有停在恐惧里。
我开始拼命找资料，问医生，查医院，问每一个能问的人。我要在最短的时间里，找到最好的医院，做最正确的手术。因为我知道，我没有时间恐惧。
后来，我在中国最好的医院之一，用15天完成了从确诊到手术的全部过程。我积极治疗，走完了化疗和放疗。现在，我已经熬过了五年的生存期。
我不是医生。我不能给你任何医学诊断，也不能给你治疗建议。
但我走过那条路。我知道光明的方向在哪里。我知道那种在深夜痛哭的感觉，也知道从深渊里爬出来的路有多难。
如果你正在那里，如果你也害怕、也迷茫、也不知道下一步该往哪走——
我想告诉你：那段路，我走过。它有出口。
如果你愿意，我陪你走这一段。